I’m out of shampoo!

oh, and almost out of toothpaste!

I guess I’ll call it a monumental moment. I’ve run out of my bonus sized shampoo, why is it a big deal you ask? Well, it’s just another sign that I really live here. Kinda awesome how the little things can make us smile.

it's so beautiful! and huge!

it’s so beautiful! and huge!

Going back to the first week I was here, I’d run out of most of my travel sized items and realized I needed to go shopping. Step one of the reality that I now live here. It was great (and frustrating) trying to think of the necessary items I needed to purchase.

Anyway, it’s been about a month and a half, and trust me when I tell you that reality is very much present.

And I don’t mean the following in a bad way, but I’m bored.

Not in the sense that I don’t like it here, cause I’m in LOVE out here. But, let’s be honest, I went from a very stressful full-time job with too many hours of overtime to no job. Sure, the vacation period of catching my breath was great, but I’m ready to be busy again.

The job search is there. There have been many applications, and a couple offers, but I’m still trying to figure it out. I don’t just want a job, I want one that I’ll appreciate, one that won’t leave me completely drained at the end of the day. I’m not saying stress-free. I mean, promise me a challenge, please. But one worth investing my time and emotions into.

I picked a stressful field, one that doesn’t sit in the well-paid category. But it is in the let me try to make a difference category, and that’s all I’ve ever wanted.

Nor sure why I’m sharing this, maybe because I have some amazing people in my life who believe in me, believe I can.

To those who know the details about my interviews, know they went well, but they weren’t the right fit. So, I’ll keep truckin’. Keep searching, applying and practicing until the right things comes along.

Believe me when I say, life is amazing, it’s worth the struggles we face.

I miss home, but I still feel so blessed to be out here. Because it’s out here I feel I can do what I long to do best, and that is to Live.

That’s all, it’s short and simple. So until next time my friends,
Take time to celebrate living in this challenging but beautiful world!

-k

love this.

love this.

God’s love is infinite!

Jeremiah 29:11-13 states, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

 

The world. Society. School. Media. Friends. Family. The Devil. Ourselves.

The things above are just some of the things that have/will try to deter us from the plan God has set for us. The plan he wants us to follow.

Sometimes our biggest challenge is ourselves. We try to “plan” our life; organize it so it goes the way we want it to. Sometimes our plan may go the way we want for a little while, or maybe it remains stationary, other times it may go the opposite way we planned it to.

I wanna ask the question, why do we try to plan our lives when God straightforwardly tells us that he already has our lives planned. He has made us in his image, to be his child, and to lead a life apart from everyone else; a life of great wonder. It’s important to remember however, that he doesn’t promise us an easy ride. He let’s us know that there will be storms, battles, difficult times, but he will be by our side the entire time.

 

One topic that many of us struggle with is “Love.” Our society often tells us we need to find love while we’re still young and quickly settle down. A lot of our search for a partner seems to be based highly on what we “think we need” and less on what “God knows we need.” We rush to find someone to settle down with. Maybe we make ourselves believe we are with the right person because everyone else thinks that person is great. Or maybe we’ve become blind to what we really want because we’ve settled for what we can get right now. Other times we believe we have found “the one,” we’re truly happy, maybe for a long period of time… and then unexpectedly things start falling apart… it’s moments like those when we can lose sight of ourselves.

It can be hard because we are physical beings, we find comfort in being able to talk with friends, family and coworkers about our  romantic relationships and hear their feedback. But what we should be doing is [willingly] giving our hearts entirely to God. TRUST HIM. Should we let the people in our lives play god just because their input is instant and it’s easier than waiting for God’s input? Sure, life may seem easier that way, but in the end would we really be happy?

 

We need to let God know that we will wait for that special someone he has planned for us because he made us all, and because we do trust him.

Think about it, He knows you and he knows everyone else, who better than to pick the person you should spend your life with than the one who knows everything about them?  God is our maker and he is a real “match-maker.”

“God doesn’t give you the people that you want. He gives you the people that you need to hurt you, to love you, to teach you, to break you, to turn you into the person you’re supposed to be.”  ~ a quote I saw online.

So yes, waiting for the love that God has planned for us will be difficult, but in the meantime, believe that in a sense God says, “You don’t have to worry about love. As long as I’m existing, you will be loved.” We may never find that one person to spend “forever” with like the media tells us we should… maybe we’re not supposed to. Many of us rely on others to make life beautiful when all we really need is God and ourselves. He is our one true love, always and forever. We can depend on him.

His love is pure, it’s true, it’s honest, and it’s worth it. Let us trust in the greatest love of all, God’s love. May we trust in him and his plan. He knows what he is doing! It’s hard to be patient. To trust fully in God and his plan. But when we do, our life will be plentiful and amazing.

 

One thing that I have learned is…

My life may not be going the way I planned it, but it is going EXACTLY the way God planned it!