Your heart beats for a reason – so listen to it!

Have you ever woken up extremely unhappy?
Felt like your life was going anywhere but in the direction you once believed it would?
Have you ever put something off until tomorrow, that you could have done today?

I have. I did.

And then, I decided enough was enough.

Here’s a personal journal entry that lead to me changing my life completely.

 

“June 6, 2014

What am I doing?

What am I holding onto?

What is keeping me back?

 

Me. Myself. And I.

 

We live in a world based on rational decisions. Realistic assumptions. Dwindled down drewms. We try to make sense of everything that cannot be explained. 

     But why?

Is life so simple, that I could point my finger at fear? Claim it won’t work. Dwell on every reason behind why not and erase the reasons saying go. Do we need to lose everything in one place in order to move onto the next.

Do we lose ourselves in the process?

How have I gone this long without reaching any of my major goals? Laziness. Lack of drive? Have I settled. That’s how I feel in my unsettled life.

My insides are screaming GO! With a force I’ve never felt before. Is it because I have nothing holding me back? Or because I have nothing I want here?

Reality’s rational life can suck it! We, daily base our choices off of what will benefit us in the long run… but what we really mean is we base our choices off of what will keep us near the American Dream of money and materialistic possessions,. But what we should really be doing is living. Point blank. 

Where’s the excitement? The thrill of new things? I’m 27 – not dead! I’m a body filled with dreams, hopes, goals… unobtainable moments. But shouldn’t I reach for them anyway? Shouldn’t I learn the hard way, from experience, that somethings may not work out? Instead of relying on that book, or blog, news report, study, famous person, or story we heard about a friend of a friend who tried and failed? Shouldn’t we fail on our own so we have more knowledge? Or at least try and succeed – Show the world all that is possible instead of making the very idea of a happy life seem impossible? 

Daily – I see, read and live a success story. I preach to everyone to reach anyway. To soar with clipped wings. To lead and not look back, all the while my feet root deeper and deeper into uncomfortable soil. Soil that only weighs me down and separates me from all I used to thrive for. 

God Kylie. Listen to yourself. YOURSELF. Not the world. Not rational thoughts. Not fear. Yourself. You. Your insides. Your heart and soul. 

Stop painting beautiful trees and landscapes and go find them! Stop dismissing your art, poetry, and stories for futuristic ideas. They are your unconscious screaming at you! Telling you that enough is enough.

 

The question is…

          What are you gonna do about it?

 

The time is here. It’s now. Do it. DO IT – before you really can’t.”

 

It was a few days later, I made up my mind to follow a dream I’d had for 8 years; to move from Boston to Seattle. 

Right now, I’m sitting on the couch in my new home in Seattle. Already, I feel at peace with myself, with all my previous choices, and with all the choices I have yet to make. I welcome this new struggle of a fresh start with open arms and a strong soul. I will post again when things settle more.

I made it!

My “I made it!” to Seattle pic!

 

But I wanted to open up, share with others, that it is never too late to follow your dreams. It’s okay to completely uproot everything you’ve known for the life you’ve always wanted. I can’t say it was easy, I left many friends and family to peruse my dreams. But the love and support from those I love most helped me make that choice (and I thank them from the bottom of my heart). Just as I hope they find their own happiness, they hope I find mine – so I did.

So go, do something for yourself today. Don’t fear it, just let it happen. If it doesn’t work out, at least you tried! 

Life is one grand adventure!

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'” Jeremiah 29:11

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Proverbs 4: A letter from parent to child.

Proverbs Chapter 4: Get Wisdom at Any Cost

This chapter is important for many reasons. A letter from a parent to their child, it discusses the difference between good and evil, how to stand strong against evil, how to protect yourself, and how to pursue goodness in life. It’s a chapter many, (if not all) can relate to and learn from in some way.

Beautifully written and heartfelt it’s one of my favorite chapters in the Bible.

Proverbs Chapter 4: Get Wisdom at Any Cost

1 Listen, my sons, to a father’s instruction;
pay attention and gain understanding.
2 I give you sound learning,
so do not forsake my teaching.
3 For I too was a son to my father,
still tender, and cherished by my mother.
4 Then he taught me, and he said to me,
“Take hold of my words with all your heart; 
   keep my commands, and you will live.
5 Get wisdom, get understanding;
do not forget my words or turn away from them.
6 Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you;
love her, and she will watch over you.
7 The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom.
Though it cost all you have, get understanding.
8 Cherish her, and she will exalt you;
embrace her, and she will honor you.
9 She will give you a garland to grace your head
and present you with a glorious crown.”

10 Listen, my son, accept what I say,
and the years of your life will be many.
11 I instruct you in the way of wisdom
and lead you along straight paths.
12 When you walk, your steps will not be hampered;
when you run, you will not stumble.
13 Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; 
   guard it well, for it is your life. 
14 Do not set foot on the path of the wicked
or walk in the way of evildoers.
15 Avoid it, do not travel on it;
turn from it and go on your way.
16 For they cannot rest until they do evil;
they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble.
17 They eat the bread of wickedness
and drink the wine of violence.

18 The path of the righteous is like the morning sun, 
   shining ever brighter till the full light of day. 
19 But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness;
they do not know what makes them stumble.

20 My son, pay attention to what I say;
turn your ear to my words.
21 Do not let them out of your sight,
keep them within your heart;
22 for they are life to those who find them
and health to one’s whole body.
23 Above all else, guard your heart, 
   for everything you do flows from it.
24 Keep your mouth free of perversity;
keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
25 Let your eyes look straight ahead;
fix your gaze directly before you.
26 Give careful thought to the paths for your feet 
   and be steadfast in all your ways. 
27 Do not turn to the right or the left;
keep your foot from evil.

(copied from BibleGateway.com)

 

Let God be your strength!

Instead of writing about how awesome God’s love for us is and about how he is always there for us, I’ll let His word do the speaking.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

“But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.” – Psalm 59:16

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding on one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” – Isaiah 40:28-31

“Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.” – 1 Chronicles 16:11

truth!

Worrying instead of living?

Matthew 6:34 states:

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Well Amen to this statement! It’s a quote a live by, and one I struggle most with. How can we not worry about tomorrow… I mean really? I’m constantly worrying about tomorrow, making “to-do” lists, trying to figure out financial things, or plan my days out… I think it’s safe to say I stress more than not.

But, it’s when life is at it’s “worst” that we should look to God because HE IS IN CONTROL. He tells us over and over again that he has a plan, a purpose for all things. We were created for a reason greater than anything we could possibly imagine.

Think back to yesterday, did you survive? Did you wake up yesterday believing that the day would be difficult? If so, and you made it to today, then isn’t that proof of God’s love and power that he has given us the strength to face our days?

Today DOES have enough troubles on it’s own. And we should spend our time facing what tasks are at hand now, not tomorrow.

Think back to last week, last month, maybe last year. Think about the things you were facing. How many times did you worry about “tomorrow” instead of living for today, only to look back and realize you made it through both “today” and “tomorrow…” ‘Cause guess what, you did!

When I think back over the worries of my life and how many times I’ve worried about tomorrow, and wasted the living I could have done today, it makes me sad. I realize that I’ve overcome a lot more than I ever thought possible, and missed out on great moments I could have lived if only I hadn’t been worrying. I’m trying to alter my way of thinking, of living. I’ve seen so many beautiful things, and I want to see more!  I can’t wait to see what else is in store – and I say that with a great deal of sarcasm!

Another part of the Bible verse is:

 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” ~Matthew 6:25-27

So think about it, God has provided! AND he will continue to do so, as long as we have faith and trust in him! He’s right, worrying doesn’t add anything to our lives, if anything, it’s wasted time we could be spending thanking Him for all we DO have and all we are capable of doing!

So remember that worrying accomplishes nothing! Give your worries to Christ, after all, he has your future all figured out already!